A look back

by - Friday, December 26, 2014

It is incredible, year after year when we look back we can see how much we have grown as a person. I am not the same person I was 2 years ago, and I'm not the same person I was in January, nor in May, nor yesterday... it is a constant growing cycle and it is exciting how much this past year I have grown. 
As I look back at 2014, soaking in what it taught me, I reminisce on the adventures and memories that were created. 

This year I visited 2 new places - The UK & Cuba. Both were completely amazing. The UK... London, Rugby, Hertfordshire, all so marvelous in their own unique ways, that I must go back for longer as there is so much more to see. And then Cuba which screams of so much history (if you are into that) and definitely worth a visit. It got my inner wander-luster revving up for more adventures.

Life is indeed full of teachings, with that said, I learnt so much this past year of myself, who is in my life and where I want to see my life going. 

I have grown and learnt to be strong, to speak out when most of the time I would stay quiet. To not allow anyone to walk over me because I'm "too much of a nice person to say anything" and to stand firm in my ground in what I think is right/wrong. I am no longer a door mat for people to use.

The hardest thing this year showed me was the true colours from people I would never think twice of hurting... people I thought were "friends". After tears and a constant stabbing betrayal feeling, I woke up and walked away, and it may bring on more they can say about me, but trying to impress themselves will only leave them looking foolish. The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies. Be careful who you share your time with. So here I am, moving into 2015 without a few, and a lot more space in my heart for those that know the value of love, friendship, honor and respect. 
This year, I started my blog. From "luludarling" at wordpress, to "missluludarling" at blogger and then changed entirely to "littlestepsbigheart". It has been a bit of a bouncy journey not knowing where I stood in the blogging world, so having a first year and sticking to it, made me so much more confident that I have decided to change up my blog a little more to suit who I am. So, if you notice my writing and the content changing, don't worry, it is still me. :)

As I mentioned in a past post about some exciting things that will happen next year, I broke it down into bullet points. 

I guess you can call this my 2015 bucket list. :)

  • For the coming year I would like to travel to at least 3 new places. 
  • Take my fitness to another level and get certified as a Personal trainer/fitness coach. 
  • Apply to a few local / Caribbean magazines as a freelance writer.
  • [Maybe] start a youtube channel. [I keep saying I would in January, but I get so scared/nervous as I just sound so lame on camera. lol ]
  • Stick with my yoga for the entire 2015 and conquer a handstand without wall help. 
As always, lists grow, so this will definitely be an expanding list of exciting things!! 
I do hope you have each grown this year. I would love to hear from ya'll which was your hardest hurdle and what 2014 taught you. 

Also, what do you think of a youtube channel? And do you have any advice for me if I were to do one? 

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  1. Lovely pics, you are so pretty and your dog so cute!!!
    Happy Holidays!
    Kisses, love Paola.


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  2. You look beautiful coll buckelist. Your dog is cute as per you tube conquer your fear go for it you will never know if you do not take that chance. Good luck

    1. Eeeeek so nerve wrecking hahahahaha thank you for stopping by.:)

  3. Wonderful pictures, your dog is such a cutie. ;-)
    Lovely greets Nessa

  4. This is a great list Louann..is't it sad when you find out a friend was never a friend... all we can do is let go and wish them luck...

    I hope you had a lovely Christmas and a wonderful holidays ♡♡♡

    1. It really is sad, but you are right, I have to wish them luck and let go.

      Christmas was lovely and I hope the same for you. :)

  5. I love the pictures!!! I hope you have a wonderful New Year!
    Melanie @ meandmr.com

  6. I'm really pleased you've had a good 2014 and I can only hope that 2015 is even better for you! It has been wonderful getting to know you and I truly wish you the best in reaching your goals!! :)



    1. It has also been so wonderful getting to know you and I have really enjoyed reading your adventures. :)

  7. What a lovely blog and post! I am inspired by your courage and positivity and focus on a fab future! Happy New Years to you, T. http://tickledpinkwoman.blogspot.com

  8. We all have ups and downs but it's important to move on and learn from it!!!
    Happy Holidays dear! xoxo

    1. Absolutely right love. :)

      Happy holidays!! xx

  9. Sounds like a good year. What I love about getting older is realizing how much I have learned. Life is good and hard all at the same time. Hope you have a wonderful 2015. Thanks for stopping by!

    Amy Ann
    The Real Arnolds

    1. It is quite a learning lesson :)

      All the best for the new year! xx

  10. Sounds like you had an amazing year!! I hope you have a wonderful New years!

    <3 Shannon
    Upbeat Soles

  11. Sounds like a great bucket list! I am planning to start my own Youtube channel too, but I'm scared just like you... I guess sometimes we need a little bit of courage to conquer new heights :D Happy New Year!

    Bella Pummarola

    1. I am so glad I wasn't the only one nervous. :)

      Here's to hoping we both conquer new heights in the new year. :)

  12. I myself am struggling with letting go of some people in my life who exude negativity...in everything that they do and say. 2014 was a great year for me and I want 2015 to be even greater, so starting it on a positive note is imperative.

    As for your YouTube channel, I think if you've been thinking about it for a long time you should definitely go for it. There are always going to be people who would try to bring you down but in the end they don't matter anyway.

    You have some fantastic goals...I know if you put your heart to it, you can accomplish it all. You would always have my support.

    xo Tami

    1. Thanks Tams, for everything you have done and being at my side throughout this year. :)


  13. I love your bucket list for 2015 - traveling to new places is always on mine!! Enjoy your NYE and have a wonderful holiday!! xo, Biana - BlovedBoston

    1. Thanks Biana !!

      All the best for 2015. :)

  14. Lovely dear! adore the selfies and your puppy … this year flew us by! can't wait to see what 2015 has in store for us!
    I have a new look on my blog; come visit!
    Kisses from Miami,

    1. Will check it out. Thanks for stopping by. :)

  15. I love your 2015 goals/bucket list! :) Wishing you a happy new year!

    Le Stylo Rouge

  16. Cuba!! You lucky lucky fish - I'm definitely heading over to that post right after I send this to you to check out your experience. Wow! I'm envious - I didn't travel ANYWHERE during 2014!! :(
    But I've decided 2015 will be my year!! hehe

    Thank you for adding in some more deep and meaningful stuff in your post - it is so needed and I am sorry about your friends. I'm pretty sure I sent you a message about this in the past - so I just hope now you feel better and have realized that you don't need people like that in your life! Keep strong - you're so inspiring!

    Let me know in a comment back where you're planning on traveling to in the new year because I am also planning loads of travel - most definitely Bali though. The rest really depends on my budget but it would be SO amazing to meet some of you that I always communicate with! From reading your post and your bucket list, we seem so alike! Soul sisters! Haha.
    I am a qualified personal trainer and am always here to help in any way I can... I JUST had my first paid freelance gig over at Bored.com which was so cool right before Christmas... I tried the youtube channel thing but I have no idea how to really edit them and make them better quality... plus my internet connection sucks. But if you start yours up let me know! I'd love it if they brought out a youtube for dummies book hahahaha!!
    Lastly I also do yoga - but very sporadically. Stupid thing is I work in a building where yoga is held!!! And I still don't go often!! hahaha but one of my resolutions is definitely to kick my butt into gear...
    jeepers I just realized I've written you an essay!! I'm so sorry!!
    As for the hardest hurdle you asked about.. check out my latest post. It's pretty raw...

    Merry merry and enjoy celebrating the arrival of 2015 tomorrow night lovely xx

    PS littlestepbigheart is such a perfect name for your blog - I'm glad you stuck with that one. It really portrays who you are and what you've been through and are going through xxx


    1. It must have been so bummy not getting on a plane for a whole year ! I am actually in Tobago right now and even though it is home from home, still a 15 min flight away. lol

      It was hard to write this post as I am still a bit personal with my life but I think speaking out about it helps a lot, esp to leave things in 2014.

      I haven't decided on the places I would like to travel to yet, but would def love to go Jamaica for sure and perhaps Peru.

      I would love to send you an email so we can chat more about the personal training program and even travel adventures if you wish.

      I love Essays, it seems more personal. :) lol


  17. Sounds like you had a wonderful year and your pup is so cute! Wishing you all the best in 2015!


  18. <3 I was thinking, what to write here..but sometimes there´s no words. So I leave this heart to speak <3 :) All good for you! And that Youtube...I have been thinking it too, but wow..camera..talking.. Help :D When you go YouTube, I will definitely follow!



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